this is as good as its gonna get

Right before I started watching Blow, I had logged into my blog, just out of curiosity to see how long it was since I updated and if any of my friends had updated. and as Johnny Depp's name appears, I wonder why I couldn't update my blog.. because its been 6 months since I wrote anything. And it's always the same excuse I give myself- because I have nothing to say. But that's not true at all. I actually have so much to say that theres no way for me to pick and choose the thoughts and words that I want to share with people. There is no possible way. Then i thought, stupidly, that someone, somewhere has a key to my mind that one day will unlock all of the words trying to escape. Why someONE? I don't know. It is a nice thought. This is all I wanted to say.